Sunday, February 19, 2006

I'm terrified of growing up and having to get a real job and be truely responsible. I have no idea how people do it straight out of high school. I went out with a guy who has already served in Iraq, Germany and several other places and is only 24.  I dont even know if i'll have accomplished anything by 24.  Every so often I'm struck by one of those "where is my life going" moments and worry that i'm on the wrong path and that i'll end up unhappy later in life.  I suppose all i can do is pray that I'm doing all that I can and what God has intended for me.  This last week I realized how much I really missed my harco girls- especially lauren and adrienne and em.  Spending more time with them this week was really great and really calming.  I'm actually really enjoying this semester so far. I thought it was going to be weird not being in a relationship, especially on valentine's day, but honestly for once in my life I feel like I dont need to be defined by who I'm dating . I can now go on a few dates with a guy to find out more about another person and not feel like i'm committing to a relationship, but just enjoying my youth, exploring my options and having fun.  I was talking to laur today about how fun being single can really be! Yesterday was so fun! Trip with Liz, Adri and Laur to Rehobeth to hit up the outlets, out to dinner with all our crew for alicia's bday! 21! yay! and then a party for her!  I had so much fun last night that it makes me really excited to live in walker with laur and alicia next year   I'm not so excited about this german history paper i have to go finish. blah